How many times over the past year or so have I said that “I’m back”?
I don’t really look it up, because it’s going to kind of bum me out, but yeah, it’s been a lot.
And what happens? I go in all gung ho, and do good for a couple weeks, and then I just go back to the bad habits…
…and the weigh creeps back up higher and higher.
Yeah, that has to stop.
All of this kind of hit me pretty hard this week.
First off, this blog turned 2 on Sunday (so happy belated birthday, blog!). I didn’t really want to make a big deal out of this, because while this blog has brought about a lot of great experiences, at present I do not have much to show for it’s creation (except for that fact that I’d maybe 400 pounds right now, instead of 310).
Secondly, my buddy Scott posted something on his blog, that I could have very easily posted myself.
I’m a broken record. I’m a broken record. I’m a broken record. I’m a broken record. I’m a broken record. I’m a broken record.I’m a broken record. I’m a broken record. I’m a broken record. I’m a broken record. I’m a broken record. I’m a broken record. I’m a broken record. I’m a broken record. I’m a broken record. I’m a broken record. I’m a broken record. I’m a broken record.
Over the past six to eight months I feel like I’ve said “this week I’m getting back at it” over and over again. I always start off well, I may even go two or three weeks and then BLAM, I’m off the wagon again and back to my old ways. Or is it on the wagon… No, I think it’s off the wagon… You know what, there’s no longer a wagon.
That post, and hit commitment to get back on track (even though he hasn’t fallen NEARLY as far as I have) hit me pretty hard.
Third, I met David of Running Because I Can and #Runchat. I was initially apprehensive since I’ve fallen so off track, but I walked away from the meeting with a nice dose of motivation.
Fourth, the Baltimore Marathon was today. If you may remember, I had originally committed to run this last year, but did not think I was ready, so I put it off until this year.
Did I run it this year? No.
But I thought about the people I knew running it, and I saw some of the coverage on tv, and while I felt immense pride in them, I felt a lot of shame in myself.
So I went for a 3.9 mile walk, and I logged into Dailymile for the first in probably over a year and posted a workout.
It was a start, I think, but I still have a long way to go. My friend Alex had conned encouraged me to give 100 push ups another try too, so I am going to start that this weekend (they will probably be assisted pushups, but I’m gonna do it!). I will also be doing Weight Watchers (again…) and keeping track of my Points, because it really did work for me when I did actually do it.
So yeah…
I’m back. No more excuses, no more whining, no more “I’ll restart tomorrows”. Shit is getting real.
To all who haven’t given up on me yet, I thank ya, and I hope you’ll stick around. I can’t promise my writing will get any better, but I will. 
Dude, it happens to a lot of us. It’s so funny you mentioned 100 push-ups, because in my and Tina’s “no more gym” workout routine, that’s one thing we’re going to start.
We just need to find some way for all of us who struggle to keep ourselves accountable.
Jeremy Logsdon´s last blog ..A Giving Up the Gym Weigh-In
Love this…”there’s no longer a wagon.”
Great job on the walk!!!
Kimberley´s last blog ..Fall 31 Day Challenge Update
Glad to have you back. I got that broken record thing going too. But, you know what, all we have is today, so let’s make the best of it.
Laurie Levine´s last blog ..I want to want this
Because of this post, I’m going to get out of bed and take a walk today. I love you man.
MrsFatass´s last blog ..upside
Now that you’re back on dailymile, I have more places to track you down. Thanks for adding me back (I blindly delete people if they haven’t updated in 3+ months).
David H.´s last blog ..Plan B
THE OFFICIAL CHALLENGE IS UP! http://www.yourinnerskinny.ca/no-excuses-30-day-burpee-challenge/
Scott aka Your Inner Skinny´s last blog ..No Excuses 30 Day Burpee Challenge
THIS is what will make you successful. getting back up. Falling down, messing up doesn’t matter, it’s the getting back up and trying again that matters. HUGS.
You rock.
Kerri O´s last blog ..Take a Break, Take a Listen
all you can do is start from where you are. glad to have you back again. I myself feel like this has been my year of the yoyo. not diet but myself. but I do like it much more when you’re around.
It doesn’t matter how many times you come back. As long as you keep coming back. Never quit. Love ya, guy!
Erin´s last blog ..Hockey…in Nebraska???
The secret is to keep going on despite the ups and downs – it’s not easy but it makes you better – keep up
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There is no giving up, there’s just moving forward. Especially when we have each others back.
Now you just be careful that you eat the smarties headed your way after your burpees (or push ups) or whatever the case may be.
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