Progress Report: Week 30
Weight: 236.6lbs
BMI: 34.4
Weight loss so far: 0 lbs gained since last week, 28.4 lbs lost total
All this does is validate last weeks horrible weigh in.
Ugh. I’m a bad weight loss blogger.
I mean, what the f*ck! I started the new year at 245 pounds, and while I did get myself out of the 240s, I’ve been losing and gaining the same ten pounds for months.
I tell myself I’m not going to keep doing this, I swear I’m going to count calories, I swear I’m going to cut out junk food/fast food/etc…and I do, for a few days, before I fall off track again. My workouts were always a constant, and the past couple weeks even they have started to waver.
It had sort of a “wake up call” this past weekend. I went to DC, and I had alot of fun, but it was the first time in a while that I actually felt fat. I felt bloated, I felt worn down, I could feel my gut hanging heavy in front of me. It was a horrible feeling, and kind of terrifying.
Despite all of the progress I’ve made, I really feel like I’ve been halfassing this whole thing, and that needs to stop. I wanted to go skydiving for my birthday, which is in less than two weeks. In order to be able to though, I’d have to weigh no more than 220lbs. For someone who started this journey last October at 265lbs, being at or below 220lbs by this point should be entirely feasible. But I won’t be there, which is kind of pathetic.
With that said, I’d like to hit the reset button.
I want need to watch my diet. If I need to start posting my calories on twitter or on the blog again, I will. If I need to go on an actual diet, I will. I’ve been trying to get by without one per se, but it’s obviously not working.
I want need to get back to regular workout routine. I plan to workout EVERY. SINGLE. DAY… even if it’s just a 15 minute eliptical workout. So far this month, I have, but the month is still young. If I time the workouts out well enough, I can get a workout in everyday and still give myself 24 hour rest periods as needed.
I want need to run. I have major races coming up, and I need to make sure I’m ready.
I want need hold myself accountable. I can’t keep hiding from the blog and from twitter when I’m doing bad. Yeah, life happens and I get busy sometimes, but I still need to check in.
Ugh. I said it last week, and I’ll say it again. I can overcome this.
I want need to overcome this.
You WILL get through this. You WILL break through. Make a reasonable goal for the end of may and work your ass off to get there.
I’m rooting for you. You WILL do this!
You can. I am with you on working out every day! Need a little friendly challenge? competition? Let me know if I can help.
YOU CAN DO THIS!
Don’t get discouraged! I feel like I’ve been stuck in the 240s for months. I know it’s hard but we can both get thruogh this!
Lauren´s last blog ..Weekly Weigh-in #7, Weekend Warriors, and Boredom Busters
Dude, I’m going through the same thing right now. Totally need a reset button. I’ve been stuck at the same weight for three weeks. It’s killin me. WE CAN MAKE IT HAPPEN.
I was stuck between 239 and 233 for a frickin’ year, and you what happens when I FINALLY bust into the 220s? I sabotage myself. Not just once, but TWICE. WTF?! Yeah, you read it first – tomorrow’s weigh in is NOT going to be pretty. But as the old proverb goes… “Fall seven times. Stand up eight.” Sometimes it may feel like fall 799,999 times, stand up 800,000 times. But the point is that you GET UP!
You CAN do this, Steve. If you need to be more strict with yourself, then do it. DO WHATEVER IT TAKES (within reason, of course – none of that gimmick sh*t). You DESERVE to be the buff guy you want to be. Oh, and don’t forget I have 8 weeks off this summer…don’t make me drive out there and kick your tail!
It’s a lifestyle change. Don’t “diet” to get to a certain weight; don’t exercise just enough to get to a certain point or a distance in a race; and lastly, don’t beat yourself up too much. You’ve already done a lot and getting stuck or regressing is just part of the process. Your blog, your Twitter account and your Q&A on my site will continue to hold you accountable. You don’t be able to disappear from us.
David H.´s last blog ..Removing the shell
try this:
get rid of ‘should’ and ‘need’ and replace with I AM (mother trucker) LOSING WEIGHT. I AM ON MY DIET. I AM WORKING OUT. I AM GETTING TO MY GOAL OF 220lbs.
Need, should, could, desire, lust—they keep your goals in the future. Get on with it. Get through those mental blocks and kick ass.
Consider the reset button hit! I had to do that mentally a couple of weeks ago. It’s scary how quickly bad habits can creep in, huh?
How can we support you? Do you need us to harrass you on Twitter for your calories? For your workouts? Another Challenge? I’ll totally host the next one…
Whatever you need. (Within reason!)
You can do this. It sounds like you’re pissed enough to plow forward. I’ve been there. It’s a process… a slow, painful, frustrating process. Hold your head high, hit that reset button, say F*%#@ this, and move forward. The community is behind you. I’ve been inspired by you many times and I’m inspired by you again today. We’re all in this together. Hang in there man. You will get there. I still can’t wait until you run that half marathon. It’s gonna be SWEET!
Lynne Garcia´s last blog ..Weekend Warrior Recap
Slip ups happens and sadly they’ll continue to happen. The only thing to do now is brush off you knees and hop back on this awesome weight loss wagon.
It’s great that you’re recognizing the things you need to do. Now you need to do them. Like everyone has said so far, we’re here to support you. This is an awesome community and quite frankly we don’t like to see one of our own fall off the wagon and never hop back on.
So come back on Steve, I’m saving you a sit next to me.
You are on a journey and frankly, the slower you go the more long term success you will have. The fact that you see all these things now shows you are progressing. When I think back to the many times I tried to lose weight and how I always ended up giving up, I could kick myself, BUT this time I know I’ve made the right changes because I don’t let myself quit. Sure, I might slow down for a while or allow myself a week of guilt free pleasure, but I do it with the condition that I will get back to my healthy ways. At one very pathetic time I actually tried to convince myself that it was okay to be unhealty as long as I was happy. What crap. I wasn’t happy, who was I kidding. Now I know these things and it sounds like you do to. You should be so proud of yourself for so many things. Every day is a new opportunity to be the best you. This is one of my favorite quotes:
” finish each day and be done with it. you have done what you could. some blunders and absurdities have crept in; forget them as soon as you can. tomorrow is a new day. you shall begin it serenely and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense.” – emerson
Words to live by don’t you think?
I will lose 5 lbs and then up and down 2 or 3 lbs for months on end. Then lose another 5 only to up and down 3 or 4 for months on end. Frustrating. It sure is a fight to get where I want to be but, I will get there!
I am with Michelle. Change need and want to ‘I AM’! Reset button hit. You can do it!
Karyn´s last blog ..Part of the anger and hatred…
Sounds like you and I are going through a similar struggle, rough patch, whatever. I love Michelle’s advice to replace want/need/should with AM. I am going back to counting calories and I am working out 6/7 days a week. I am losing this weight and I am not looking back.
Hang in there, recommit, and know that YOU CAN.
You will overcome this, because you have such a great attitude! When you’re finding it hard just visualize yourself reaching that 200lb target and doing that skydive, and you will be motivated and empowered to succeed, even in the toughest times!
Dude, 28+ pounds lost is AWESOME. I too find that if I don’t track what I eat I get VERY lax and put any old thing in my gob. I use an iPhone app called LoseIt – It’s free and works very well for me. The only thing I don’t like about it is that you can’t enter foods eaten on their web site (as far as I can tell). You have to input the data with an iPhone/iTouch device. Something to checkout if you have one as it’s makes data capture pretty quick & easy!
Steve, take a deep breath and DO NOT be hard on yourself!!! Focus on one day at a time and what you do and eat in THAT day. There is no looking back, only forward. You CAN do this. You have come so far, and this is just a small bump in the road that we all go through. Just know that you have friends that are here for you & support you no matter what!! HUGE HUGS!!! xoxo
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The last part of my latest post was with you in mind too, bro.
If it makes you feel any better, I’m right there with you man…struggling big time here!!!!!
You CAN and WILL overcome this Steve. You’ve made it this far. You KNOW how to do this. You just have to put all the pieces together and keep pushing yourself. Remind yourself what you’re doing all this for. Remind yourself what life used to be like, and that you never want to go back to living like that.
You can do this man, we’re all here for you.
Brandon´s last blog ..Weekend Warriors Challenge #3: The Results Show
Hey buddy,
Small goals that lead to the big one. I think sometimes the big goals are just so overwhelming, because they’re so far away. And have some non-weight goals. Remember, you have the blog not because you’re perfect but because you’re aiming to be the best Steve that you can be. So don’t be afraid to post when you’re struggling or have a rough time. It’s your place for yourself.
And so you might not be at 220 by your birthday. So? It’s not pathetic. You’re 28.4 pounds lighter than you were in October. Try curling 28 pounds with one arm. Well, for me, that’s really heavy. That’s a LOT of weight. You have to remember how far you’ve come. Don’t forget that, and don’t let it go. So you’ve got some more work to do, but you’ve already done A LOT of work. Be proud of yourself for that. And so you won’t get to 220 by your birthday. So what? You’re already 28.4 pounds closer to 220 than you were back in October.
Chin up mister. Look forward. Focus on what’s ahead. The past is the past. It happened, you can’t change it, but you can control what you do today. So make it count
Jess´s last blog ..The Matrix Guide to Running
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Hi Steve,
I can only tell you what works for me when I get to a place where I feel stuck and demotivated, but I find it really helps to give myself a short term, acheivable kick up the arse which will make me see results. I try and plan just one week where I keep calories low enough to loose a pound, and then plan 5 days of high impact exercise and I resolve to stick to it, just for one week, and promise myself a glass of red wine and some dark chocolate (my personal vices) on the Sunday if I have stuck to the plan. Obviously this is just what works for me, but I find I can stick to anything if I know it’s just for one week and then when I see the scales have gone down after 7 days it motivates me to think about sticking to it for another week. This may be rubbish advice, I don’t know. But in any case I would definitely reccomend you work out how many calories you should be eating and stick to them rather than following a ‘diet’ as these tend to be more restrictive and are often bad for you. Also don’t exercise every day. Exercise hard 4 or 5 days and let your body recover on the others, be kind to yourself physically and be kind to yourself mentally too. Don’t beat yourself up, it doesn’t acheive a thing. Give yourself a big hug, remind yourself of why this is important, remind yourself that you are important, and then go for it (especially the running, running is so good for everything in life.)
I think we all have spring fever…. or something. Skydiving will be great and you are SO close. Hang in there, count your calories and let us know what kind of motivation we can give you. By the way, I was totally envious of your trip to DC.
Danielle´s last blog ..We Are Nashville
Yep, you WILL overcome this Steve!
Reset button duly pushed.
Now get out there and kick some ass like I know you can.
Josie´s last blog ..Oh My Blog!!!
Get mad, get pissed and get started!!!
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I did this too! I was up and down, up and down. I gained and lost the same two pounds for an entire month. It sucked.
I had to buckle down and stop with the BLT’s (Bites, Licks and Tastes). They were sabotaging my efforts! Also, I had to stop using the “event” as a reason to get off-track. So what if every other week I had something to do that involved food? I had to make some smarter choices. Thankfully, I’ve left the 180′s behind and am now working on getting rid of a new decade. You’ll do it too!